I spoke in an earlier post about a new life philosophy, so here you go. It’s nothing ground shattering or epic, but it’s real, it’s me, and it’s my life.
This first part is a few selections from Donald Miller’s “Through Painted Desserts.”
“All my life I have been changing. I changed from a…
I needed this today. I went on a job interview yesterday. And its scaring me. I might actually get this job. Do I want this job? Yes and No… I do now want to continue my 150 miles a day commute. But I don’t really want to leave my job either. But I don’t want to leave this job because it is safe and familiar and easy. But I want to be closer to my new home, and maybe have a schedule where I can have a dog because though I won’t be close enough to go home for lunch I won’t be gone for 12+hours a day. This place is about 30minutes away. It will be stressful and hectic. I will have to use my brain to its max (as of right now I feel like my brain has been mush for a year). I will probably make less money but I might be able to swing a benefit package that includes hubs….This is a BIG company (nothing corporate but corporate-ish) WORLDS away from the mom and pop shop I have been at for over 5 years now. Ah. change is good right? I keep on telling myself this but I sacred SICK. I just don’t even want to face it because it scares me and that is so unlike me. I never ever run or hide from my problems but I don’t know this is bigger to me then all of the changes that I’ve gone through in the past year (and they were big ones, moving, marriage, etc…) put together.
